Dear God,
I am writing you
because my heart weighs heavy with confusion and it’s you that I look to…for
clarity and serenity. This cancer is
spreading and affecting my relationship with you but my past teachers taught me
that your word holds true. Not a
frequent reader of the good book and some blessings I blew on account of my ignorance
and my earthly flesh tethers me and prevents the gifts I hold inside to burst
out of me…..but I stand strong in the mist of it all…through the finger
pointing and disappointment and the ignorance of others…opinions based off assumptions
but you make me still love them…..why?
Sometimes my pride allows me to hold hate in my heart….this
cancer seems to love me….. it can’t stand to be apart so it ravages my heart
and it uses my feelings against them…..but I still miss them! Can you explain
to me what this allows this to be, I should be gritting my teeth and completely
giving them the cold shoulder….but my earthly flesh and my spirit that’s like you
has me playing the fence whether to fall victim of continue following you…..but
that’s a fence I don’t come to very often my faith is rooted in you….now I’m
rambling I know you are busy with other things that’s bigger than me, I just
wanted to send up a letter to you personally.
Thank you God for showing me that without your grace and mercy….things
could be tougher for me. Thank you for
giving me the courage to release friends and family so I can focus on me but
only momentarily. Place the correct
words in my heart so they may flow through my words and help them understand I am
perusing only what you choose my life for…..but some things you say should
remain cloaked with in your presence and not meant for all eyes to see. Thanks again for not allowing any weapon to
prosper against me.
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