Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Dried Flowers

this one is a special one from my mother Flo Campbell...writing runs in the family.


Some people in my office take a curious second look at me when they catch me rummaging through the office trash.  I was only removing what is left of a once beautiful arrangement.    Women in upper management receive the best floral designs.  Okay, okay I don’t do this often – only once or twice a year.  We recycle everything so these items are placed in a relatively clean receptacle. After the flowers they received have wilted and the miscellaneous buds start to drop off, the whole bouquet is tossed in the trash.  I could never do that.  I never have.  I never will.

Anyway, for years now, I’ve salvaged the most beautiful woody stems which make the best fillers and accents. I’ve created some of the most memorable arrangements this way, often returning these arrangements to the very person that tossed the flowers in the trash. 

During a lunchtime ride today, I was thinking about how I wanted to be remembered after God has called me back to himself.   Will it be for my singing, my praise, my contribution to the Sunday school lesson, my hugs or my kisses?  I wonder what people will remember as I journey toward the end of my life.  I also wonder what people in general will think after they notice that my hair has lost it’s luster and the gray has creped in, or the once strong spine has weakened causing my shoulders and head to slope forward – much like the flowers I find in the trash.  Will they see no usefulness?

I pray that I will be remembered in the same way that I used the vibrant dried flowers that I pulled from the trash.  I want to be remembers as an accent that returned joy to a broken heart or life to someone who has almost given up.  I want to be remembered as vividly as the yellow dried roses and purple statice or sea lavender that I rescued from recycling. 

I study everything – no matter how it looks and appreciate the fact that it contributes to the beauty of my surroundings.  That’s how I want to be remembered.

An Emotional Mess!

Weight lifted off my shoulders all I can think about is holding her…..the remedy to my soul…I fall to my knees just to admire how beautiful she is from head to toe…..
Heart flooded with emotions but no confusion nor doubt can creep into my mind….my mind is made up to not pick up where other have left my heart…..and that would be on the sidewalk….
Picked up by a stranger bandaged up…..heart was hurt but never gave up…..she seems to be the only girl that has ever given a fuck….keeps me lifted ….she admires my poetry….and thinks I am really gifted….takes time to listen… she seems to know me. 
I know its love cause everything fits just right……the missing puzzle piece that seems to fit just right….Like the perfect contrast of colors….and how the clouds blend with the blue skies above us.
I never make promises that I can’t keep…..but who would had ever thought that you promises would make me weak.
Your drive keeps me on my feet….you tell me I’m a good listener…..TRUE!!.....but I just love to hear you speak.  Your style……..so unique……I can’t think of anyone else who could compete…..no competition…..my amazing.
Not fond of the naked man on the front but this was the only one that was clear lol.


Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Untitled

I'm sure y'all are familiar with Currens$y and his song "She don't want a man" if not then you need to expand your genre of music but here is my rendition of it I hope you like.  Let me know what you think.


It started out great....had plans to get off work late......dialed up ol girl made plans to head out straight.....to go get this bad red chick.....she couldn't be missed... long hair pink lips small waist...medium size hips...for a petite chick.....

but anyway... we cruising steady.... radio blasting blunt lit.... we got conversation going heavy....talking about how her relationship went bad and now she got a lil girl...fussing him out telling him this little girl doesn't even respect her own dad.....all the while she collecting her things form his pad.....

Scared trying to run away from the things in her past....in my mind I wonder is she ever gonna give me the ass...then I think to myself she could just be after me by the things that I have in my pad....trying not to forget what the streets taught me....

I know ...she don't want a man she just wanna fuck.....I know.... she don't want a man she just want to fuck...she just want a man that she can fuck....

I tell her to break the weed up.... he telling her he don't give a fuck....I know..... she don't want a man she just want to fuck.....

She ask can she stay the night.....just promise me you'll fuck me right.....she don't want a man she just want to fuck.....yea!

Now I been rocking with this chick about a year and a half now.....don't know where I went wrong....homies told me I should have left her ass alone....she knows your pockets are a little long.... don't come on to strong ......you need to send her back to where ever she came from.....but I didn't listen...mentally blocked from all the good lovin we made...in my own mind I'm sayin them niggas just trying to throw shade.....not knowing all the lust that we made...but little did I know it was all in vein.....this crazy bitch had me going truely insane...


I know she don't want a man she just wanna fuck.....I know she don't want a man she just want to fuck...she just want a man that she can fuck....

I tell her to break the weed up.... he telling her he don't give a fuck....I know she don't want a man she just want to fuck.....

She ask can she stay the night.....just promise you'll fuck me right.....she don't want a man she just want to fuck.....

Picture perfect....... looking from the outside in...but little did they know how deep I was in...having attachment issues .....listening to songs that gave him the blues....homies checking like dog this shit isn't you...don't let that needy bitch ruin you....as I proceed to nod my head and say true...  they proceed ....dog that girl just wasn't right for you..stay true to yourself don't let her get the best of you...I guess she wasn't a rider....

I know she don't want a man she just wanna fuck.....I know she don't want a man she just want to fuck...she just want a man that she can fuck....

Monday, April 8, 2013

Saturdays

Play fights on a Saturday Morning waking up to you reminds me of waking up to the smell of fresh cut roses…..I left those for you…..next to the night stand.   Silk sheets…you lying up under me…..movie playing…as the rain daces off the window pane as I watch you sleep.
Wake up from a long slumber the smell of breakfast cooking makes you wonder…..why is he so good to me…make no mistakes you know the answer to that question. 
Sweatpants and one of my shirts…you step out the room looking better than you did when we first met….table set……breakfast for two but all my focus is on you.
Pretty as the sunflower that sits in a vase on the window seal….your heart is up for grabs so I take it and stash….these other lames out here want what they can’t have….So I want to protect it….if she offered me the job I would accept it…..only been on call for a few hours now and I’m already promoted.
I prayed for a women like you….now you are here in front of me having breakfast…..God choose you to be my angel and I have to accept it.
Looking forward to many more Saturdays like this…pillow fights and breakfast….leaving sunflowers for you on the window seal and notes that say you’re amazing and picturing your thought process like I can’t believe he wrote this….on a Saturday!

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

The Perfect Mistake

Met this little joint through a mutual friend…..I could tell that she was digging the kid….so I stepped to engage in some conversation…hit her with a little word play.....made her see things my way……she dug what I had to say  so I slid my number her way….she put it in her mobile…..then I got mobile and slid to the next spot to the north side where the more high class chicks stay…..flashy cars and nice apartments home all on another niggas dime …depending on their looks to get them what they want every time… now that’s just the way they lived…..all that mattered to them is how nice the guys crib was….what kind of car he’s driving and how much he’s willing to spend to get it.  I won’t one of those niggas so they never really checked for me but they knew of me from who my peoples be…. that’s how light skin came about I met recently. 
…the glow of my phone alerted me to an incoming call…..haven’t saved the number yet so it’s coming up as phone….a 919 number though….so I answered….HELLO…deep down I knew who it was…..but I wasn’t  really sure.   Thick Northern accent…not mention an ass to match it…I caught on quick and said who it is…so she caught on quicker and said you knew who it was nigga…why didn’t you reply quicka…. To the text message I sent…. I had no missed messages….  I told her……..she told me to come show her…I thought about it…..thought about it long enough and I told her I’ll be right over.
Pulled up to the drive way….L still lit…looked down In my cup and I still had a few more crown royal sips….looked to my right of the car and she is standing there in her house pants small T-shirt and all hips.
Couldn’t wait until to get into those vagina lips…but I kept it cool because I’m no fool I knew this chick had a reputation to be fast and quick… and is known for getting you into some kind of shit…..walked up smooth…..eyes low and I just finished the last bit on liquor that was in my cup….I’m ready to turn up.  Dark stair well….. the climb to her bed room I’m sure is going to be well worth it….the nights been going well so far why shouldn’t this be picture perfect...what I didn’t know is she had a lot of emotion…the type that give you the ass….fold like in a poker game and throw all her cards in…..having attachment issues…reading too deep into things arguing about things we shouldn’t have to.  Just glimpses in to the future…sleeping with enemy I had no idea.  Come inside meant to cross the threshold…got caught up…and crossed the threshold and came inside…. But I only came by for a night… and what was done in the heat of passion wont right… but that’s the choice I made and the bed that I made…. so I’m playing in it……no plans in staying in it….boy the choice I made…now I’m living it.